Qaerress, a Sith Sorcerer would like an LOS invite. I am online with this character currently and will stay on until about 11:00 PM EST. I'll update this to the next time if no-one sees this while I'm still on today.

Just saw this. Reflecting upon the past year, I can easily see where someone feels like their life has gone out of control due to the enormous amount of nonsense we've put up with. Here are some things I remind myself of whenever the going gets a little harder than usual.

1). It is okay to be less than perfect. Stop judging yourself so harshly. No one except you sees every tiny flaw in your character. Most of those flaws are flaws only to you. The rest of us see them a lot more positively. And no, we're not judging.

2) Friends and family are everything. Everything. Whenever I get to feeling bad about myself, I check in with my friends and family for some reassurance I'm not the giant tickturd I feel like I am. On a side note, Stonewall is full to bursting with good people who would be glad to reach out and help. All you gotta do is ask. And if you need someone to listen or just to vent at, I'm not going anywhere.

3) Mental health is just as important as physical health. Probably more so. People are hesitant to ask for help because of fear. Franklin Delano Roosevelt once said, "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself."

Lastly, for those who are the ones people come to for assistance: Listen carefully to what is NOT being said. And simply listen. Don't try to 'solve the problem' for somebody. They've come to you first and foremost as someone they feel they can trust enough to expose vulnerabilities to. This may be all they require.

I'm not an expert about mental health. I do know the things I've posted here help me. 

Thank you for this.

Very useful for this weekends endeavour, thanks Andrea :) 

This is a bit late on writing but tonight is calm enough, the drink strong enough (i Know a horrible coping mechanism, those that know my backround I hope will understand) Felt it was good to write out the struggle that things are.

I don't really have a solid way of coping with my depression or suicidal tendencies right now. Before covid struck the world down it was weekly combat with a group of people. It was the one thing I was able to look forward to each week. Since my adult life started it has gone from abusive relationship, bad roommate demanding sexual favors for a continued roof over my head to worse options. I have dealt with being homeless jobless and hopeless a few too many times. Depression coupled with my desire to just end it all have been constant compantions since I was a young child. For the longest time there was no help because I could never say anything to those that could help. Learned early on that trusting the system would just leave you watching it fail you over and over again. None of that past sets up good habbits or mental health.

That mental health always wavering on the varried interpersonal interactions with those you have become close to. When the internalized self loathing is so much that the outside influence of others is your only anchor till you are able to float again, it leaves you easily able to sink. This last week was rough. The days leading up to it rough, suicide sat on my mind every day leading up to tuesday the 23rd. There was a night i fell asleep thanks mostly to my meds, with the blade in my hand. Very little stayed me, i had nothing in my heart that screamed its worth living on still. Tuesday was my birthday, 90% of my friends and family who know that day ignored it. My own twin forgot me. One friend went out of her way to travel hundreds of miles to come up and see me. She doesn't know how much she saved me that day. The people I live with a former lover and care taker of mine left the day mostly empty before me, my children as sweet and loving as they can me gave little comfort to the pain I was feeling. The issolation that followed with being forgoten by those closest to me. Depression, heavy deep dark depression that is so irrational crumbling from something so small to something large and bottomless, its not easy, its endless. The struggle to fight it and find one little thing to cling to and struggle with, the internal nightmares you face that so few others can relate to, least those around you. Its just hard! So many things you tell yourself silently that undermine what could keep you afloat, the constant look for something to validate your continued breathing. Therapy talking to someone helps a little, its taking the edge off. The distractions of life that could help so limited right now, this last year, what looks to still be the year to come. The challenges to what was helping you cope. Find those things that help, hold them in your hand till they burn their memory into you. The smallest thing can save you. Many days its a flip of the coin still, or a spin of the barrel. Its hard, will continue to be hard. Not a matter of strength that will make you pull through least in what I have seen and felt, but which hand and feeling you are able to grasp. What thing or person that will balance you in that moment.

It's getting harder, there is still so much road ahead with endless challenges to what will be life going forward. The smallest thing can become that which carries you through.

Oh, good idea. Posts are made for eternity. Here is mine:

For me, suicide was never an option. Commiting suicide would mean for me, that the others would win. That kind of satisfaction I don't want to grant to others. Following that thought brings us to the main issue of that matter, meaning how to deal with problem situations that are unsolvable for me, no matter how much effort I put into it. In a way I developed a technique to do it, which is only a workaround, because I don't solve the problem. I imagine myself as part of an away team from a spacefaring civilization, say something like a United Federation of Planets. In this Federation there is a non-interfering order called the Prime Directive, which prevents away teams like mine to interact with others for problem solutions. So I'm left with the ability to observe, which is what I do in real life. Concluding this thought, this means also that there is something really cool about this approach: I like getting experience, and so I can get an amazing one, being a witness of the apocalypse. You could also call it the madness of humanity, but I think the two are roughly the same thing.

So I sit here, in the restaurant at the end of universe, watching the dolphins preparing their departure. I like it.

Hey waiter, can I have another drink please?

Coping with Asperger autism and chronic PTSD, I have lived through quite dark times myself. I wholeheartedly agree with most things already posted and I try to keep my redundant thoughts short.

Coping strategies

1. One Day More
Multiple times I was ready to give up but I always convinced myself to give it one day more. For the next rehearsal. Or until the next concert. Or when I met this or that friend. Or until after a holiday, for the sake of my family. Looking back, I think this is actually a brilliant survival strategy: don't decide it generally. Keep postponing decisions you could not take back. Take life one step at a time, one day after the other, or when things are really desperate in bits of 10 seconds like Kimmy Schmidt advises (btw. early seasons of Kimmy Schmidt are great for distraction, too - Uuuuunbreakable!). It is also kind of similar to what Beppo from Momo advises: don't look until the end of the street, just do it one pavement flag after the other. And then suddenly it's over.

2. Water
Water is scientifically proven to reduce depression symptoms. There just seems to be something it does to us 'ugly bags mostly filled with water". When you have the time and opportunity, take a long warm bath. Alternatively, taking a shower can also be very helpful. Even in high-stress-situations, it's often possible to quickly visit a bathroom and throw some water in your face or let water stream across your wrists. All these options help relax the nervous system, I feel.
And, as basic and lame as it sounds, drinking a large glass of cold water also often helps disrupt a destructive thought cycle for me.

3. Music
As stated by Voleron and jperko, music can be helpful. I fully agree with jperko about writing/composing and the importance of choosing music that doesn't deepen one's sorrow. Personally, I find especially 'mathematical' music (like Bach or Schönberg) very soothing. Playing it myself on an instrument works best for me, balancing the mind and keeping hands and brain busy with complex movements. But listening to it is also helpful, especially with headphones when it's a stereo mix. Activating both halves of the brain is important in certain PTSD-treatments and I think that's why playing an instrument with two hands as well as stereo-listening is so helpful.
Singing is very liberating, to me, as well. Feeling the resonance of my own voice, I guess, in a way relieves feelings of helplessness. It is no coincidence that so many movements use the slogan 'raise your voice'.

4. Distraction
Sometimes you can't face your distress directly, it would just be overwhelming. Distraction is a good survival strategy for such moments. I used to feel I was 'weak' and 'running away' when I did such things, but I got to understand it can be the right way to go when the pressure would otherwise be too much. I've gotten through some very bad days by solving Sudokus and I can't count how many times I woke up from a nightmare in serious distress, turned on STO and fled. And most times I found SGN members there to talk to.

5. Diary
Writing down what's on your mind and then letting it go helps me as well. It helps me clear up what's actually getting to me so much. Verbalizing it can be very hard for me, especially while the feelings are strong I often have a hard time talking about it, and in writing I can find the words to talk about it later. I can put all my distress on paper, appreciate it and then put it away. It's like storing it for another time when I feel I can cope with it better.

6. Nature
This has also already been mentioned, and I know that at times it can be hard to find a place in nature. But the small things also work well for me, even when I struggled with leaving my inner city flat at all, I found joy in watching the birds outside my window or admiring the structures of a leaf (even from a salad). Obviously, being in a calm place surrounded by plants is better, but it can be difficult to find when living in a town.
Observing ants also is very peace-inducing for me. And interacting with dogs always helps me, too. Before the pandemic I used to go for walks with my brother and his husbands dog once a month or so and I always found the presence of that special dog very helpful, especially in talks about difficult family situations, and even for days on.

7. Safe Place
It can be under a blanket, as mentioned, but it is anywhere where you feel (and actually are) safe. I had a safe place under my grand piano for while. People knew when I was there, I needed to be left alone. I had a pillow there, my diary and my love would just let me be there and occasionally offer me water, coffee or food.
In my childhood, I used to climb a certain tree where I knew most people would not be able to follow me to and then I just sat in that spot for a while to calm down. I guess that's Nature + Safe Place in one :-D
People tried to train me in creating an 'inner safe place' in my mind to retreat to but, at least for me, it needs to be a real physical spot. Preferably a cosy, warm and tiny one, for me.

8. Solidarity and Analysis
Whatever you are struggling with, you are probably not alone. Just knowing that other people went through similar things helped me a lot. Finding role-models who went through it and survived, too. Most things that depress us are not individual tragedies, let alone failures, but rather systemic problems. Realizing how much of my own pain and horror experiences was so very typical for our society took a lot off my shoulders.
With time, I understood there was nothing wrong with me. I wasn't emotionally unhealthy, I was reacting in a healthy way to very unhealthy situations. It also helped me realized that even when I was actually considering suicide, it was not because I wanted to die. It was because life felt unbearable. And things can change. And by now I'm very happy that I'm still here.
You are not alone.

9. Smile-List
When my therapist first proposed this to me, I thought it was a ridiculous, useless idea. But I tried it and it turned out to be one of the most easily accessible helpful things I got from therapy: a personal smile list.
Try, on a good day, to think of ten things/situations/memories/movie scenes that make you smile.
Write them down.
Memorize them.
Then later, whenever you feel depression or anxiety approaching, take one of these out in your mind and allow yourself to smile. Although everything. Because even in our greatest despairs, life itself is a miracle. And the wonderful things are there, even when you don't see them. But you can try to re-focus.
Some examples of what's on my list:
- Cool Runnings (if you need context, you need to watch the movie, it's funny)
- MC Glamour
- Celebrating Captivity
- Talking Porcupine
- The stunned look of surprise on the annoying boys face when my then-girlfriend actually poured a glass of juice over his head after telling him she would pour the juice over his head if he wouldn't stop (and he didn't stop, so he got the juice HA)

10. Know (and respect) yourself
Speaking of 'feeling anxiety approaching': it was very important for me to get to know how to read myself. This sounds easy, but it isn't. At least it wasn't for me. There were lots of times when my emotions caught me off-guard, just suddenly taking over, because I wasn't listening to them in the first place. I didn't want to feel that way, so I told myself I wasn't, but feelings are not obeying such orders! So I had to learn to notice the early signs that such a wave of emotion was coming. That took me a lot of observation and patience. Try finding the patterns of what happens shortly before an emotional storm - small signs in your body. Maybe it's shortness of breath, or something specific you do with your hands, or a type of headache - everyone is different but there probably are body signals that sound the alarm when the emotional attack is coming.
And then, next step, when you notice these signs, react BEFORE it takes over. Don't judge yourself, don't demand that you 'should be able to' or whatever way is your personal way of belittling or shaming yourself. You are okay the way you are, including these feelings we all don't wanna have. But you also have a right to feel okay. And if you notice that you don't, change something. Don't just run head-first into the same wall over and over.
It may mean to get off the (metaphoric or literal) train. It may mean to leave the (metaphoric or literal) party. It may mean to postpone a discussion. It may even mean to cut off (or drastically cool down) a relation that causes these feelings. In my case, it also meant giving up a career as a live musician. But your own mental health is important and you have every right to look after yourself and not put other things, or plans how it 'should be' , or other people first. You are worthy of respect and love. Even and especially from yourself.

Try treating yourself not like the harshest critic, but like a best friend would.

Join Fleet Captain RobertJaneway of our Fleet Morale Department for a week of Mental Health Reflection. Suicide is heartbreaking and at a higher concentration in the LGBT Community. Help us for a week straight, each day, by posting in our event forum thread your favorite stress coping mechanisms and strategies, along with how SGN has helped you deal with 2020/COVID/General Stress.

I created this forum post because my note was too long. Feel free to add your notes here too. :-)

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Just ran across this one that still seems to work.

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Thanks, Gareth!

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I received my gift before Christmas, and did post in Discord, it slipped my mind to post back here again.

It is a crazy fun card game that would give Agents Dulmur and Lucsly of the DTI soooo many headaches.
Thanks again Secret Santa!

I just got mine today - thanks, Secret Santa!

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Is that it? Was participation really low this year? 

Same as previous years - I think Santa’s mail carriers were just a little slow this year.  Also, people have been posting their pictures in Discord and may have forgotten to post here too.

Is that it? Was participation really low this year? 

while i'm on HC COH too, i moved to Excelsior, it's busier there, though i may move my villains to everlasting, for red it's busier there than all the other servers, sometimes combined lol

I received my gift from Santa LOVE IT (the cover) THANK YOU

I received my Secret Santa parcel today from an extremely generous Santa!

I'm not sure I can thank them enough!

I got this a few days ago. Took me some time to take pics
Thanks, Secret Santa. It is a gift I love but wouldn't have bought myself :) 

https://www.stonewallgaming.net/photos/166099

Thank you to my Secret Santa for two gifts, a lovely Star Trek Captains Log journal and a Star Wars Baby Yoda Cup! :)

Very kind of you, Secret Santa xxxx Hope you have a Very Merry Christmas and a Wonderfully Happy New Year!